Bye Bye Breastmilk Blues
This morning I watched as Jude drank the last drops of my breast milk. I am shocked at how sad I feel. I breast fed him for 14 months. After he was born I did not experience post partum depression. However, this has left me a bit depressed. I know some moms reading this will be like ” Wow, you should be glad that you were able to nurse him that long.” I also know that there are some breastfeeding extreme-o’s out there who may even be judging me for not keeping it up until he is two. All I know is that I am totally comfortable with how long he nursed. It was definitely the right time for us to stop. I had been hauling that pump around everywhere I went for months. I had to pump in the hallway at school in between my night classes. During the day i could just walk over to the daycare because it is on our school’s campus ad nurse him. Also, when I was teaching at Pure Barre I always had to get there 20-30 minutes early to pump and make sure that I remembered to bring the bag that would keep it cool with the ice pack. As I weaned him, I continued pumping once a day for a bit and stored it all in the freezer. This was the end.I love nursing this little monkey. I loved knowing that he was “getting the good stuff”. But I must also say though I know that formula is not as good health-wise. Tiago was not breastfed. Yes, I know that it is possible. But at the time I had just also found out that I was preggo with Juders and had just gone from just a working wife to a mommy and pregnant no time flat so it was all a bit to take in and we gave Tiago formula. I don’t think that formula is the best but I have no judgements or negative feelings towards anyone who uses it. I really enjoyed the fact that James woke up and fed Tiago in the middle of the night for those first 7 weeks before he started sleeping through the night. That was AWESOME!! Anyways, my main thought of the day is that I am sad that jude has no more breast milk to drink. Sad sad sad. He is doing great drinking his almond milk though. It took a while to sell him on it, but now he sucks it down.
* side note. One of the other great things about breast feeding is that it is free!!! When Jude was only nursing we were able to make buy all of our groceries every month just with our foodstamps. Now a days both boys eat more than I could have ever imagined and we end up having to use some of our student loans each month to make our last 1 or 2 grocery runs. Thank you government assistance.
Any mamas out there care to share a comment about their weaning experience feel free.